Just too close ....

Ugh ... feels like I'm too close .... for anything right now. I'm on the verge of breaking down right here in front of my computer. At work. Go me. 

Not that I'm a religious believer in astrology, but my horoscope warns that I should stay away from confrontation today. I read this late last night and, being level-headed at the time, thought this was a good idea. 

This morning is a different story.

I can't dig my thoughts out of what's happening with new M. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. No texts or calls. Nothing. Trying my hardest not to fully go bonkers at the possibilities of what could be going on here. But, judging from this past weekend, I think he's putting up a wall between us. He's said before that he doesn't need any more stress than he's already got. I agree .... who does? But, since we had that talk, I haven't put any kind of stress or pressure on him. 

Still, he won't let me in and it's more than a little distracting today.  I went about my day just fine yesterday focusing my energies on things going on during my day. But, I can't seem to pull that same energy today. Every thing I think of seems confrontational. I just wrote a text (but didn't send) telling him I'd appreciate being told if he doesn't want to see me anymore. I stopped myself from pressing send and thought this could end up very bad. 

Not what I want at all. I need to clear my head.