As it was before, I am back to keeping my options open as far as dating and hanging out with guys ... as well as friends.
This morning, I was feeling a little melancholy. Missing my little B for some reason ... and thinking about how I miss being a family with M. Mix these thoughts with those of Movie man and how harsh he was to me on Monday night. It was a tough morning.
Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love that I get my options back. I think my subconscious is telling me to grieve away the time I spent with Movie man, just a little. All I know is that I feel good in getting my freedom back. And, a friend just reminded me how much happier I seem and that I'm enjoying the company that I've been surrounding myself with.
He's right ... xoxo
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Dissed again
This is the second night in a row that I've been dissed. I did not miss this feeling. The last time was when Movie man and I first met. We all know how that turned out.
Anyway, I'd been texting this guy I met a while ago about bikes. He suggested we go for a ride tonight, just he and I. I think, great! I need a ride for next week's bike night anyway! So, I tell the dude about it and he loves group riding, so we set a time to meet and place. I drop B off with M and head over to our meet spot a few minutes late. Guy said earlier that he would call or text before he left. I didn't get either, but I was already late so I figured he might just be hanging around anyway. WRONG! I get there and there are no bikes in sight. He's got a black suzuki GSX-R 1000. And, I don't see it anywhere, so I park and wait. I pull out my phone and text to see if he's coming.
There was no response, so I start getting antsy just sitting there waiting. Meanwhile, I hear old, pimped out trucks in the distance and this makes me think "it's a motorcycle!" Wrong again.
After waiting for about 45 minutes, I decide to jet. It was pretty obvious he wasn't going to show up, so I split.
I'm not really butt-hurt about it, I just wish he sent me a text saying "can't make it tonight" or something to that affect because I could have been in bed, asleep an hour earlier.
So, since tonight was going to be a little test to see what kind of a rider he is, the whole deal is off with this guy. He couldn't even show up. Hell if I'm gonna be stuck at home next friday wondering where my ride is. Nope. His invitation to bike night has been revoked. On to the next ...
Two nights in a row ... dissed. How did I let this happen??
Anyway, I'd been texting this guy I met a while ago about bikes. He suggested we go for a ride tonight, just he and I. I think, great! I need a ride for next week's bike night anyway! So, I tell the dude about it and he loves group riding, so we set a time to meet and place. I drop B off with M and head over to our meet spot a few minutes late. Guy said earlier that he would call or text before he left. I didn't get either, but I was already late so I figured he might just be hanging around anyway. WRONG! I get there and there are no bikes in sight. He's got a black suzuki GSX-R 1000. And, I don't see it anywhere, so I park and wait. I pull out my phone and text to see if he's coming.
There was no response, so I start getting antsy just sitting there waiting. Meanwhile, I hear old, pimped out trucks in the distance and this makes me think "it's a motorcycle!" Wrong again.
After waiting for about 45 minutes, I decide to jet. It was pretty obvious he wasn't going to show up, so I split.
I'm not really butt-hurt about it, I just wish he sent me a text saying "can't make it tonight" or something to that affect because I could have been in bed, asleep an hour earlier.
So, since tonight was going to be a little test to see what kind of a rider he is, the whole deal is off with this guy. He couldn't even show up. Hell if I'm gonna be stuck at home next friday wondering where my ride is. Nope. His invitation to bike night has been revoked. On to the next ...
Two nights in a row ... dissed. How did I let this happen??
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Can't be THAT surprised, now can I?
So, remember that post where I said Mr. Movie-pants and I were going to give it a real try? Well, we did. And, it failed. Miserably and fast. At the time, I knew it was a giant mistake, but I went ahead and gave it a shot anyway.
From my pov, I could have been a better girlfriend. And, I would have been, but I couldn't get passed the fact that he was going to leave me for at least a year in October. I say at least because through our talks, he was starting to say that his move to Utah wasn't a sure thing. All three of his kids are there, and he had started to think about NOT going through with his divorce. What was I supposed to do? Or think? So, I started to take our thing casually. I would go out with friends and make other plans on the nights he worked. I go out riding with groups and on solo rides and this would bug him to no end. I couldn't understand why since he would always vent to me about his dealings with the ex and his thoughts about what he's going to do when he gets to Utah.
To make a long story short, he got possessive of me and the time I spend that wasn't with him. He asked if I could put off my love of going out riding on hold until he left in October. I couldn't believe that came out of his mouth! He instantly said he was joking when he saw my reaction, but I knew he wasn't. So, tonight, when he stewed all day about me choosing to stay at home rather than hang out with him, he calls me to tell me that he's tired of waiting for me to do something when he has all these other invitations from girls that want to date and shag him. He tells me that if I still want to date him, that's fine, but he'll be out dating trying to fuck other girls. I say I'm done and couldn't be happier to be rid of him except for one thing. And, it's not what you think ... dirty minds!!
He was a real asshole about it. All he had to say was "I'm tired of waiting around for you, so I'm out." That would have been totally acceptable. He did NOT have to tell me how he's going to date other girls and try to get laid. Oh, and date me at the same time. That was uncalled for. Especially from a guy who says that I had his heart wholeheartedly. Yeah fucking right.
At least now I'm free to make plans with whomever I want without him blowing up about it. I had planned on skipping the next bike night because it was his birthday. But, now ... all deals are off! I'm going on that ride guilt-free!
From my pov, I could have been a better girlfriend. And, I would have been, but I couldn't get passed the fact that he was going to leave me for at least a year in October. I say at least because through our talks, he was starting to say that his move to Utah wasn't a sure thing. All three of his kids are there, and he had started to think about NOT going through with his divorce. What was I supposed to do? Or think? So, I started to take our thing casually. I would go out with friends and make other plans on the nights he worked. I go out riding with groups and on solo rides and this would bug him to no end. I couldn't understand why since he would always vent to me about his dealings with the ex and his thoughts about what he's going to do when he gets to Utah.
To make a long story short, he got possessive of me and the time I spend that wasn't with him. He asked if I could put off my love of going out riding on hold until he left in October. I couldn't believe that came out of his mouth! He instantly said he was joking when he saw my reaction, but I knew he wasn't. So, tonight, when he stewed all day about me choosing to stay at home rather than hang out with him, he calls me to tell me that he's tired of waiting for me to do something when he has all these other invitations from girls that want to date and shag him. He tells me that if I still want to date him, that's fine, but he'll be out dating trying to fuck other girls. I say I'm done and couldn't be happier to be rid of him except for one thing. And, it's not what you think ... dirty minds!!
He was a real asshole about it. All he had to say was "I'm tired of waiting around for you, so I'm out." That would have been totally acceptable. He did NOT have to tell me how he's going to date other girls and try to get laid. Oh, and date me at the same time. That was uncalled for. Especially from a guy who says that I had his heart wholeheartedly. Yeah fucking right.
At least now I'm free to make plans with whomever I want without him blowing up about it. I had planned on skipping the next bike night because it was his birthday. But, now ... all deals are off! I'm going on that ride guilt-free!
Friday, May 25, 2012
And, I'm back!
Hello readers! It's been a few weeks, but I'm back! A lot has been going on and I am now back on facebook. Not super active or anything, but I can, once again, tolerate certain peoples' posts without looking too much into things.
Though, there is one thing on my mind right now. I met a guy online five or six weeks ago and he's a biker. I like him just fine and we are both in the mindset of just being friends. The mutual interest, motorcycles. So, we text here and there and he's invited me out riding a few times. In return, I've invited him to movies and dinner with friends. We've hung out a bit, but I get this strange feeling that he might think I'm into him more than just wanting to be friends.
This has happened to me before. I befriend a guy and then they end up thinking, for whatever reason, that I want more. Whether they actually tell me that or not, I always find out some way or another and then what could have been a nice friendship turns into nothing at all. In one case last summer, this guy I went out with just as friends interprets my invitation to an advanced screening of a movie and drinks before that as "she wants me and won't stop chasing me." How the EFF does that happen? I only found out because this guy happened to be one of my cousins' good friends and the idiot tells my cousin these lies about me chasing after a relationship with him. HELLO! Blood is thicker than water! My cousin tells me this and asks if I'm into his friend like that. I simply roll my eyes and tell him that his idiot friend got the wrong idea.
I mean, c'mon guys! Is it really THAT impossible for a girl to JUST want to be friends with a guy? Is that too hard to accept? It boggles the mind and it confuses the hell out of me when all I want is to be friends and share in the love and enthusiasm of motorcycles.
So, this case in particular is one that I don't want to fizzle out. This guy has great connections in the biking world and I really enjoy going out with him and the rest of the crew. Plus, he's full of knowledge for a beginner like me. Now, I won't lie and say that he doesn't fit the type that I'm attracted to spot on, because he does. But, I'm not into him like that. For a girl my age, I can handle a platonic relationship with a guy whom I may or may not be attracted to. I just wish I didn't have this weird feeling that he's pushing me away. It's pretty damn stupid. Oh well ... guess we'll find out tomorrow night.
Goodnight readers ... xoxo
Though, there is one thing on my mind right now. I met a guy online five or six weeks ago and he's a biker. I like him just fine and we are both in the mindset of just being friends. The mutual interest, motorcycles. So, we text here and there and he's invited me out riding a few times. In return, I've invited him to movies and dinner with friends. We've hung out a bit, but I get this strange feeling that he might think I'm into him more than just wanting to be friends.
This has happened to me before. I befriend a guy and then they end up thinking, for whatever reason, that I want more. Whether they actually tell me that or not, I always find out some way or another and then what could have been a nice friendship turns into nothing at all. In one case last summer, this guy I went out with just as friends interprets my invitation to an advanced screening of a movie and drinks before that as "she wants me and won't stop chasing me." How the EFF does that happen? I only found out because this guy happened to be one of my cousins' good friends and the idiot tells my cousin these lies about me chasing after a relationship with him. HELLO! Blood is thicker than water! My cousin tells me this and asks if I'm into his friend like that. I simply roll my eyes and tell him that his idiot friend got the wrong idea.
I mean, c'mon guys! Is it really THAT impossible for a girl to JUST want to be friends with a guy? Is that too hard to accept? It boggles the mind and it confuses the hell out of me when all I want is to be friends and share in the love and enthusiasm of motorcycles.
So, this case in particular is one that I don't want to fizzle out. This guy has great connections in the biking world and I really enjoy going out with him and the rest of the crew. Plus, he's full of knowledge for a beginner like me. Now, I won't lie and say that he doesn't fit the type that I'm attracted to spot on, because he does. But, I'm not into him like that. For a girl my age, I can handle a platonic relationship with a guy whom I may or may not be attracted to. I just wish I didn't have this weird feeling that he's pushing me away. It's pretty damn stupid. Oh well ... guess we'll find out tomorrow night.
Goodnight readers ... xoxo
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Thursday, May 3, 2012
Quick pick-me-up
You know what feels nice? Three guys wanting to take me out to dinner tonight. Very flattering, yes indeed and is a nice little day brightener.
But, priorities come first. Tmobile to make sure they spilt my family account and to upgrade from my crapberry to a nice new, faster and with flash (and netflix) smarty-pants phone! Yeee!
But, priorities come first. Tmobile to make sure they spilt my family account and to upgrade from my crapberry to a nice new, faster and with flash (and netflix) smarty-pants phone! Yeee!
Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Crap-berry!!
Blackberry, you SUCK! I've had my curve for about a year and a half and recently a few of the keys are starting to stick. I prefer text to talking on the phone, and because of that, sticky keys make it super hard to text!
Just can't freaking win.
And, now I'm looking at my bill online and getting frustrated with all the extra charges on my account. Considering leaving tmobile and going with a network that has the iphone. But, which one? They're all a lot more expensive than tmobile and I'm already having issues with paying what they charge. Just can't win.
I need a damn drink.
Just can't freaking win.
And, now I'm looking at my bill online and getting frustrated with all the extra charges on my account. Considering leaving tmobile and going with a network that has the iphone. But, which one? They're all a lot more expensive than tmobile and I'm already having issues with paying what they charge. Just can't win.
I need a damn drink.
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