Starting to love it

I'm talking about what I do. Yes, I'm talking about the writing. Always loved it, but writing articles for websites was never the main goal. But, you know what? It's my craft, and they're letting me get the practice and exposure that I need. I now have two editors. I've been writing for the online entertainment news website for about two months now, and about two weeks ago, I landed another writing job. 

This one has steady work. It seems I have hit the jackpot with this one since this contract boss needs articles every week. They pay the same as my other writing gig, which is good for now. I've just submitted my first article, and I'm hoping my writing style mixes well with what they're looking for. Though, I think he wouldn't have asked me to write if he didn't like my samples. Anyway, the work promises to be steady, and that is something that has really caught my interest. I'll do the best I can with what I have to work with, and maybe I'll get more assignments in the near future. 

As far as work on my book goes, it's going. Rather smooth since the creative juices have been flowing again. Unfortunately, that's how it goes for some of us writers. For me, I ride that wave of creativity as long as I can, until the oceans run flat. Then, nothing. Fortunately, I've managed to grab paying work in between those lulls. It's a little more comforting, but by no means for slacking off. No more!! This book must be finished this year. I'm kind of looking forward to some time I'll have in Colorado. Down time when SM is at work, and I'm at home thinking about what to do. I'll have my laptop since I will need to continuously submit work for both of my contract bosses, and I can work on my book. Inspiration, come to me now!

Stetson Man is on board! We skyped earlier today, and we talked about what we really love to do, and always wanted to do in life. For me, it's writing. No question. It's my passion, as you all can tell. And, it really motivates me to know, and hear him tell me how he likes my style of writing. So, he tells me about what he loves and where he would have liked to take his career. He thinks he's too old, but I think there's still room for him to do what he loves. So, I talk more about my writing gigs, and how I'm coming along with my book. And, he tells me that he loves that I'm getting to do what I really love. It makes him happy to see me succeeding one article at a time. I never had that support in my marriage. Had I? I might be a seasoned writer by now, but I don't like to think about that. 

At the very least, it's a start. A small one, but a start in the right direction for my life and my writing career. I have specific goals for this next year, and I'm setting out to achieve them. The fact that I have SM's full support means the world to me. 

But, I haven't quit the day job yet. The desk job is going pretty well. My manager loves me, and she says she'll really miss me when I'm in Colorado next month. It's only for two weeks, but I must be doing a really good job if she's gonna miss me already. I'm thinking that I might stay longer than I had planned. And, who knows. I have room to grow there, and it could even turn into a full time job. That, I wouldn't mind. It's a nice office with exceptional and friendly staff. And, like I said before, close to home. 

Well, it's after midnight, and since I've been back to work, my night owl days are pretty much over. I can't believe I'm still awake. The reason for that is because I just finished that article. I don't work tomorrow, so I'm trying to stay awake for longer tonight. I think I'll put Game of Thrones on and fall off to sleep. Full day tomorrow.

Good night, readers ...xoxo

Dilemma

I am conflicted at the moment. Not about Stetson Man. No. He's amazing and I know I'm so lucky to have him in my life. It's something else.

Can't really go into it because it's not sorted in my head just yet. Family related. And, I promised myself that I would never blog about family things that I'm dealing with. It's late, and I've taken so long to get a certain point across to a certain someones in my family, and now I'm stressing. I know it's stupid, and I know I'll feel so much better once I do. But, I can't fucking bring myself to do it. UGH.

I'm close to the breaking point, and I just want to get it over with already. Waiting another day is absolutely killing me. Fuck. Me.

Shit. My closest and best cuzzo knows what I'm talking about, and even she can't believe the circumstances ... but, understands. Ugh. Dammit. If I do it now, might help. Fuck.

I know. Rip the bandaid off, right?

Right. G'night world ... xoxo