Monday, December 15, 2014

Saw this coming ...

Today, one of my girlfriends had a breakdown of sorts. This being with some friends that we were all close to ... at one time not too long ago. 

I don't know how to word this delicately, but I saw it coming. 

It's hard to think that some people who have become so close to you in the past few years would just slowly fall by the waste-side, or kick you to the curb like yesterdays news without giving you a heads up of sorts. 

This girlfriend was pretty much blindsided this past weekend, and I can't help but know what she's feeling. I've also been dropped from this group of friends, but I don't think it's for the same reason. For me, I think it stems back to the fact that I maintain good friendships with certain people that this couple doesn't like. If you ask me, that's just being stupid and childish, but this couple seems to think they're the Duke and Dutchess of Wales to all their friends. I mean, come on. There's only so much a person can take until your ego blows up so big, and then you pretty much want nothing to do with them anymore.

That's the case for me. It's sad,  really. I thought these people were my friends. As did my girlfriend who got so frustrated with them today, that she created some drama which resulted in her deleting anyone having to do with this group from her social networks. But, that's not the worst of it. The chick that she reached out to basically told her that her friendship wasn't worth it, and that there was nothing left to say. Ouch. Talk about time wasted investing in a friendship you thought was genuine. Not to mention the cold-heartedness of her message. My girlfriend sent me a copy of what was said, and I felt so bad. 

I talked to her later, and she says she's letting it go. But, I know it's still stewing in her mind and bothering her to no end. I feel bad, but what can you do? You can't make people like you. Especially if you don't know what happened to just make them stop talking to you. 

While all of this was going on this afternoon, I contemplated sending a message to the same chick. But, what was I gonna say? Why'd you guys stop inviting me to events? How lame does that sound? I kind of already know anyway, and I really don't care to associate myself with those kind of people. If you can't accept someone for who they are, no matter what, then it's not worth it to me. 

Sad to say, but I think I'm done with those people. At least for now ... until I have to be around them again. The ones I really like all moved away. 

Time to leave the office. Night, readers. 

xoxo

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Girl crush

No, I haven't kissed a girl. But every now and then, I tend to have little crushes on other girls.

It's not quite the same as having a crush on the opposite sex. At least, it isn't for me. A girl crush is something like ... I meet or see a girl, who is physically attractive to me, but as I get to know them, I find I like conversing and sharing time with them. It's friendship at it's finest, I think. 

In my adult life, there have only been a rare few girls that I've been attracted to in this respect. My last girl crush, I met back in 2011. She was this beautiful, Russian that worked across the hall from me at my last firm. We got to know each other after always passing in the halls, and started hanging out ... going to lunch, first friday events, even bike nights and whatever else my crazy friends were up to. Her husband traveled a lot and was gone for months at a time, so it was fun spending weekends with her when I wasn't on a date or with my little B. But, a little over a year ago, she moved to Kansas to be with her husbands' family. I miss her, but I'll be in Colorado next year, so road trips to see each other is a definite must!

My current girl crush is this gorgeous local Korean girl. She has two other sisters close in age (we're all around the same age) but, the other two don't strike me the way she does. I mean, they're all beautiful, but my crush gives off a different vibe than the other two. She's warm and welcoming ... and spunky. Very much like myself. Maybe that's why I'm attracted to her. And, like my last girl crush, I hope this can turn into a friendship evolving passed my move ... you know, keeping in touch via text, and maybe facebook. 

So, that's what I mean by "girl crush." It's not the normal kind of crush you get for the opposite sex. 

I'm going to end this post here. But, if something else pops into my head, I'll post again.

xoxo

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Another year ... come and gone!

How time has been flying. Yes, readers, I am back after a few months hiatus from my blog. I have been keeping busy with work, my little B and ... life in general.

It's already the second week of December, and I cannot believe it. Before we know it,  2014 will be over. And, I am completely unprepared for this holiday season. I'm still at the same job making peanuts, so Christmas will be very small ... gift-wise. I intend on getting B her gifts ... and, that's pretty much it. My parents, too. But, SM and I have postponed Christmas as far as the gift giving part. We're both in dire straits in regards to finances, so it's no problem for both of us to wait on swapping gifts.

SM and I have been doing very well, but his schedule at work has been changing, which means his sleep patterns are not consistent. Poor guy is tired and grumpy ... a lot. And, he's got more roomies in the house, along with more pets. While the rent is cheap, space and quiet is getting hard to come by. We skype way less than we used to, but I expected that with his work, riding, visiting family over the holidays and with the recent move of some friends to his place. 

It's fine. We text a few times a day, but when we get to skype, it's so nice. Seems like a rarity these days. Our sessions have been longer and longer, but that's because we don't know when we'll be able to coordinate our schedules to skype again. Pretty sad, but like I said, I'm fine with it.

Planning another trip to Colorado, and this time with little B in tow. I'm excited to take her up there so she can see where we will be living within the next year. Shooting for March, when she's on spring break, but it might be sooner .... February. Just depends on if I can land a new job along with a few writing gigs to pay for this next trip. SM says to just save the money for the move this coming summer, but B has expressed that she would like to visit Colorado before we move there. And, I would like that too. It will also give me an opportunity to look at places and meet with a real estate guy my cousin has put me in contact with. 

It's getting more exciting and I'm getting more impatient. And, my friends' wedding invites came in the mail a few days ago, so it's all getting pretty real pretty fast. That happens in May, and SM will be back then. It will be so nice to see him in February or March, then in May and then in the summer ... when we'll come up to stay!!

So, I'll be back in the next few days with another post. I just wanted to shoot this one out to let you guys know I'm still here.

Night readers! xoxo