Bring on the benefits

I started this post about a week ago. Worked on it throughout the week ... 
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From that title, I know what you're thinking. And, you're not wrong. You are not wrong. 

Things have been clarified and put into perspective. I'm talking about with this last guy I was dating. Let's call him H. 

I gave him an initial because I'm still posting about happenings with him ... and, it's much easier than "the last guy I was dating."

So, H and I have been texting over the last few days. Between all his issues and all my stuff, we've decided to stay in touch. It's clear that we're still very attracted to each other, which is good. Though, I don't want to do anything to interfere with his healing process, I like that he's still around, and that we can still flirt. 

Last night, I saw him for the first time in a few weeks. He actually came out of his hole (his studio) and interacted with the world. It was nice to see him, and to just hang with him again. 

A bunch of my clanmates (yes, clash of clans) got together for the Lunar New Year at a softball park in Hawaii Kai. As their leader, my presence was requested by some of them since they hadn't met me yet. So, I decided to go and I brought B with me. Earlier that afternoon, I texted H to let him know what was going on since he is also in my clan. I was expecting a flat out "No" on his part since he had been a hermit for the last few weeks. But, throughout the day, we were chatting here and there about the events for the night. He mentioned a few times that he'll probably stop by the park while he's out. But, I didn't get my hopes up.

That evening, H decided to go on a crazy solo ride to relieve his restlessness, and ended up meeting a group that does regular Thursday night rides. During all that, B and I had met up with the group in HK, and were having a good time chatting, clashing and eating/drinking. There were intermittent texts between H and I, but I really didn't think he was gonna make it there since it was already after 10, and I was getting ready to leave to take B home. So, I was surprised when I heard the roar of a bike in the distance while chatting with a friend. I looked up, and then checked my phone. Sure enough, there was a message from H saying he was on his way. Well, shit. He was gonna make it! Next thing I see his one headlight coming up the drive. 

Few moments later, there he was. And, I was happy to see him. Shortly after he arrived, it started to rain, and the park was closing. We headed over to one of the guys' house nearby and cruised for a while. It was really nice hanging with some of my friends and clanmates since I had not done that in such a long time. 

Moments. That's  really all we have ... these short bursts of good times that make lasting memories for ages to come. 

A moment. That's all it was. Who knows if we'll ever get that again.

xoxo