Thursday, September 6, 2012

Conflicted

Just some random thoughts going through my head in the last few days ...

Last night, I invited a guy friend as my guest for the movie. We kind of ended up spending almost the whole day together. He took me to work in the morning and then came up to town to watch football at his brother's place which is near my office. He grabbed me from work, went to have a drink with one of his couple friends, and then it was off to Ward for a screening with one of my couple friends. 

This friend is very easy to be around. We have a past and that's probably why its so comfortable being with him. Some serious thoughts were swirling about my head while we were together last night. I say serious because I've been thinking about being in a couple again. 

Geez, it's even hard to get the words out of my head, I'm so conflicted! The reason being .... we hurt each other real bad in the past. We were out of touch for about 3 years, and when he came back into my life earlier this year, I was a little harsh. Not wanting to believe he genuinely wanted me in his life, whether it was as a friend or more. But, now that we're spending more time together, I'm starting to see him as a potential suitor once again. 

In other thoughts, there is someone else I've been talking with lately. He's new to the island and very cute. Seems respectful and very down to earth. Two traits I have NOT seen in any of the guys I've been meeting over the past few months. We are meeting for lunch in about a half hour and I'm trying to remain indifferent because of my recent experience with jerks who meet me, hang out a few times and then disappear on me, never to be heard from again. Very skeptical at the moment, so we'll see how things go after this first meeting. 


This is going to sound funny, but I'm also conflicted about where to celebrate my birthday this year. It's coming up in two weeks and I want to have a small dinner somewhere swanky, but inexpensive at the same time. A few places come to mind, so I've been checking out menu's and considering logistics of the night.

Last year, I celebrated my 21st (haha!) birthday with friends at Dave 'n Buster's taco tuesday. That was a real good time! Dollar tacos, cheap beer and great company. A popular radio station had been broadcasting live that night, and one of their outspoken radio personalities singled me out for my birthday on the air. It was a blast! 

This year, I'm turning 25 (wink, wink) ... Yeah, that's right! But, in all seriousness, this year is going by much too fast for me. 

Back with more thoughts later ...

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