Chill out ... breathe ....

What a day I've had. Besides the conflicted feelings I'm having about two people, a douche bag from my recent past had resurfaced and contacted me again. 

Not that its hurt that I'm feeling, its the fact that my mind is so boggled with the way this douche wronged me and then never talks to me again until today. He doesn't even realize that he did anything wrong. I am so shocked that he actually thinks I'd want to "hang out" with him after doing what he did. This guy is a mind-fucker and I won't stand for it. 

On the other side of yesterday's coin is, yes, the conflicting thoughts and feelings about two people I've been hanging out with. One is a riding buddy who, until this weekend, I thought would be a fun foodie/riding partner. He and I have been going out every other weekend eating at new places and going for some fun and intense rides on his CBR. We've been having a good time and it's been nice knowing that he's up for anything. BUT, he told me this weekend that he's kinda seeing someone. It sounds like it's very casual and along the lines of just having a good time. I've met her and she's a nice girl, pretty fun. But, now that I've heard it from him, I feel weird about going out with him. Even though she is cool with it and is seeing other guys, too. Plus, I know this guy cares about me. When I show up at bike night with riders he doesn't know, he always makes it a point to ask me who they are and there's always a bit of concern in his voice when he does. 

Last weekend while we were out, he asked if I was dating anyone. I didn't really have an answer. I said that I wasn't, but in the back of my mind, there was the other guy whom I recently met. 

Now, this new guy is younger by four years, but he's pretty wise beyond his years. He and I have an insane amount of things in common, and he's really fun to be with. I've hung out with him a few times and the chemistry between us is palpable and I have a good feeling about this one. 

Yesterday, I had this post all figured out and arranged in my head, but now I'm going to split them up. Each thought for one post .... I'll be back in a few.