I. Miss. You.

Something has been on my mind lately, and I've been missing him so much. I dare not say who; but, I'm pretty transparent that way. 

I'm broken.

And, I don't know if I'll ever be fixed again. I'm not writing this to get anyone's pitty. Just need to vent how I feel at the moment. It's been bugging me, and it's culminated to this post. It won't be a long one, I promise since it's after 1 a.m. 

Just that he's been on my mind so much. After it ended, I didn't give myself the proper grieving time. I jumped to seeing another guy. Then, when that didn't work out, I jumped to another. After the last one, I realized that I can't pull myself into someone else and all their baggage. I don't want to. Why would anyone want to be so vulnerable when there are so many other avenues in life that can make you feel so alive? 

He was it for me. He was the one. And, he's been gone for over 9 months now. We're still friends, but not like before. He didn't love me the way I loved him. It's sad, like I was in a fairy tale wonderland thinking all he wanted was me, too. 

I'm broken. And, I don't think I'll ever be fixed. 

xoxo