I'm at it again, folks. Late night posting about things moving about in my head. It's frustrating, fun and whole lotta mess. Yes, my brain is about to spew some word vomit. You're not gonna like it.
I don't even like it, but it has to come out. I'm so frustrated. With things going on in my personal life. No names, of course, but I gotta say, I am struggling.
First off, my computer is still broken, so I can't access all my writings. It's driving me up the wall because so much has been happening, and the creative stuff is starting to really build up. I miss the days where I could just pop open my laptop and bang out a page or two in my story. Or, a little novel of a post. Or, simply a thought that I need to get down in my personal journal ... for my eyes only. I miss that, and I need to fix it.
My laptop is getting pretty old, and it's definitely time for a new one. But, I need to get to all my work, and in order to do that, I have to get that screen fixed. Once I do, I can save up for a new laptop. Until then, I'm using my dad's desktop, and sneaking some writing in at work. Only thing, I can't save anything there.
I still don't have a car, so THAT's making the frustration even worse. There was going to be one last attempt to fix it, but that's not gonna happen. So, I have to chuck it and save for a new one. Oh, and I'm looking for a starter bike to learn on, and quite possibly get me to and from work. I could be starting at a new job soon, so I will need my own transportation. What a headache.
Back to all the fun going on in my life ... it is, and it's not. There's a lot of positive stuff going on, but on the dating front, I gotta say, this one is different. Never done anything like it before. And, that's all I'm going to say about that.
Today marks one month that SM and I have been split. I'm over it, and we are friends again. Like this past year had never happened. All those feelings disappeared like smoke on a windy day. The feeling is amazing. We can talk, and I feel nothing. I still care about him, but only as a friend. It's nice.
So, I think I've had about as much drama as I can handle in the past month. I'm talking about girlie drama. The friends I thought were true, are not. I'm actually trying to distance myself from one of them now. She's the last of the group, and she insists on still talking with me. I could care less because she is friends with all those fake personalities, and it makes me sick. She's nice enough, but drama rules her world, and I can't be around that.
And, on another note ... I am staying away from faceBITCH. I mean, facebook. Another hiatus is calling to me as I am just hating it right now. Social media .. ugh. I am just over it. All the posts about weddings, babies, date nights, pictures ... not to mention people you don't want to see popping up everywhere. And, then the ones you want to hear from, you see them all over fb, but where's my text?? You know? Oh hell, I'm so done.
And, Instagram. What the fuck is that all about? If you're gonna post a million and one pictures on social media, DON'T do it on IG! At least on fb, you can upload a bunch at one time. IG only lets you upload one at a time. It's no fun scrolling through that feed seeing picture after picture from the same person. OMG kill me now! So, I'm just gonna stay away from it. Another thing, you know that girlie drama? It's on there too! Girls I know will shamelessly chase after guys that don't want them, liking their pictures and commenting where it's not wanted. Ugh. I see certain names, and I cringe. And, it's not gonna go away. So, I have to. I know it's the attention. Guys just LOVE the attention a girl is willing to throw at them. No matter how much they deny it. They like it. So, I'm just done.
At least for now.
Ugh. What did I tell you. Word vomit.
xoxo
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