He just wants to be FRIENDS. Ohhh, sheeee-taaaay! I'm talking about the guy from the post before this one.
Just a few days ago, dude was all about how attracted he was to me and wanting to hang out every night. And, NOW he just wants to be friends. What the fuck is up with that?? I don't know what happened, but I find it incredibly strange and irritating that after all that chase, he has come to an abrupt stop.
WOW....
If anyone can explain it to me, PLEASE DO. I am at a loss for effing words ....
Thursday, August 9, 2012
FML ...
And, I have officially made sure that I will never hear from a certain someone ever again. WOW. I can't help but laugh at my stupidity....
Monday, August 6, 2012
Weekend? What weekend?
I only say that because this past Saturday and Sunday did not feel like a weekend. It was all family all weekend. And, it is to be expected because this week, we are sending off two of my youngest cousins to college, and the other on his two year mission to another country.
In recent weeks, its been hitting me a little everyday that my baby cousins aren't babies anymore. They're all grown up and going off to college and to see the world. I couldn't be prouder of all of them, just sad letting them go.
At the moment, I am a little more than peeved with one of them. Yesterday, my youngest cousin had her high school graduation party, and all the family helped out. I was assigned to the sign in table along with one of my other cousins who will be off to her senior year in Oregon, and B was our little helper passing out flowers to the graduate girls and candy leis to the graduate boys. My other cousin who will be starting her senior year in Washington was assigned to photographer duties. Personally, I thought I should have been taking the pictures while she took my place at the sign in table (as she was complaining about her duties almost the entire time). Don't get me wrong, she was taking good pictures, but failed to make sure everyone had a chance to get their picture taken with the graduate.
One thing I've learned as a photographer and in school is that when you're taking photos at an event, you try your best to make sure everyone there is included and gets their picture taken with the guest of honor. EVEN family who is helping out. There is no favoring one group of people which is kinda what was happening yesterday. But, I'm mostly peeved because she paid no mind to making sure that I was in any of her pictures, let alone getting one with the guest of honor. I was there, working and helping out to make sure everything went smooth, but not once did she say, "Hey T, smile!" or "take one with B."
Of all the photos she took as yesterday's official photographer, I am in NONE. Real nice. Come to think of it, she left out some other key people in the family, too.
Pissed.
In recent weeks, its been hitting me a little everyday that my baby cousins aren't babies anymore. They're all grown up and going off to college and to see the world. I couldn't be prouder of all of them, just sad letting them go.
At the moment, I am a little more than peeved with one of them. Yesterday, my youngest cousin had her high school graduation party, and all the family helped out. I was assigned to the sign in table along with one of my other cousins who will be off to her senior year in Oregon, and B was our little helper passing out flowers to the graduate girls and candy leis to the graduate boys. My other cousin who will be starting her senior year in Washington was assigned to photographer duties. Personally, I thought I should have been taking the pictures while she took my place at the sign in table (as she was complaining about her duties almost the entire time). Don't get me wrong, she was taking good pictures, but failed to make sure everyone had a chance to get their picture taken with the graduate.
One thing I've learned as a photographer and in school is that when you're taking photos at an event, you try your best to make sure everyone there is included and gets their picture taken with the guest of honor. EVEN family who is helping out. There is no favoring one group of people which is kinda what was happening yesterday. But, I'm mostly peeved because she paid no mind to making sure that I was in any of her pictures, let alone getting one with the guest of honor. I was there, working and helping out to make sure everything went smooth, but not once did she say, "Hey T, smile!" or "take one with B."
Of all the photos she took as yesterday's official photographer, I am in NONE. Real nice. Come to think of it, she left out some other key people in the family, too.
Pissed.
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
The day after ....
Feeling much better today. I'm putting all that happened yesterday behind me and moving forward.
Actually, I'm in a very good mood today. This morning, B met her kindergarten teachers and had a little interview with them before starting school next week. It went well and we're excitedly awaiting her K-room assignment and kinderkamp. Mommy is already signed up to help with field trips, make special treats/foods for the kids and selling zippy's fundraiser tickets. Man, they get you quick!! Before your child is even in school!
After that, we picked up breakfast at McD's and headed in to my office. B came with me to work for the first time today, and that was exciting as well. I had her at the office for a good two hours before my parents came to pick her up. After meeting everyone in the office, she sat quietly in the conference room and colored some pictures. B was very well behaved and I was just so happy to have her with me.
So, now I have about two hours until I am done with work and I miss her. Just ate the worst bibim kook soo I've ever had and now I'll have to down a whole lot of water to get the icky sesame taste out of my mouth.
Just can't wait to leave ....
Actually, I'm in a very good mood today. This morning, B met her kindergarten teachers and had a little interview with them before starting school next week. It went well and we're excitedly awaiting her K-room assignment and kinderkamp. Mommy is already signed up to help with field trips, make special treats/foods for the kids and selling zippy's fundraiser tickets. Man, they get you quick!! Before your child is even in school!
After that, we picked up breakfast at McD's and headed in to my office. B came with me to work for the first time today, and that was exciting as well. I had her at the office for a good two hours before my parents came to pick her up. After meeting everyone in the office, she sat quietly in the conference room and colored some pictures. B was very well behaved and I was just so happy to have her with me.
So, now I have about two hours until I am done with work and I miss her. Just ate the worst bibim kook soo I've ever had and now I'll have to down a whole lot of water to get the icky sesame taste out of my mouth.
Just can't wait to leave ....
Monday, July 30, 2012
Played the Fool
Yup, I've just been played the fool by a guy I thought was my friend .... and a little more. But, I've just found out that my suspicions all along have been true. He was just using me. Never would he consider an actual relationship going past being friends, not now ... not ever.
So. I'm done letting him play me like a toy, like the fool I knew I'd turn out to be. Yet, I still let him in. The attention was nice, but that's all it was because now he has "someone" to give real attention to. And, I'm tossed out like yesterday's trash.
They say you should be cautious when entering a "friends with benefits" situation. One person will always get hurt. I didn't think about this too much since dude moved away. But, he still wanted what we had .... long distance. Contact wasn't constant, maybe we talked every couple weeks, but the interest, the attraction was all still there.
Never the less, dude led me on because he didn't tell me he was seeing someone. As his friend, I thought he'd open up and tell me something like that. In fact, I know we talked about that before. But, he's a coward by nature and I have no interest in keeping someone like that around. I said goodbye and burnt that bridge like it was going out of style.
Moving on .....
So. I'm done letting him play me like a toy, like the fool I knew I'd turn out to be. Yet, I still let him in. The attention was nice, but that's all it was because now he has "someone" to give real attention to. And, I'm tossed out like yesterday's trash.
They say you should be cautious when entering a "friends with benefits" situation. One person will always get hurt. I didn't think about this too much since dude moved away. But, he still wanted what we had .... long distance. Contact wasn't constant, maybe we talked every couple weeks, but the interest, the attraction was all still there.
Never the less, dude led me on because he didn't tell me he was seeing someone. As his friend, I thought he'd open up and tell me something like that. In fact, I know we talked about that before. But, he's a coward by nature and I have no interest in keeping someone like that around. I said goodbye and burnt that bridge like it was going out of style.
Moving on .....
Wednesday, July 11, 2012
Chatty chatty bang BAM!
Yeah, I'm pretty chatty today. For some reason, it feels good to get my frustrations out in blog form.
There's this guy ... yup, a guy. I have this mad attraction to him, but I can't explain it. We go for days without talking or texting ... and I'm fine with it. But, then he'll text me and thoughts go back to the last few times we hung out, and BAM ... small-kine explosive feelings shock through me. I think about his light touch on my body and I have to shake my head to be free of those feelings since I never see the guy.
One thought in particular ... we were at a local noodle house getting take out. He stood behind (towers over) me while I order our food. Then, I feel it. His hand slips beneath the bottom of my tee and he softly caresses my hip and lower back. My brain goes kinda fuzzy and I just about melt before I catch myself and finish the order.
Dude put some kind of spell on me or something because I can't shake this attraction. He's a riding buddy, too. Maybe that has something to do with it. Something about riding with him is incredibly ... sexy. And, I ride with other guys, but don't feel that way with any of them. We're all friends, but this one did something to me, and now I see him differently.
This is going to drive me a little bonkers until I ride with him again. Maybe next Friday .... just maybe.
There's this guy ... yup, a guy. I have this mad attraction to him, but I can't explain it. We go for days without talking or texting ... and I'm fine with it. But, then he'll text me and thoughts go back to the last few times we hung out, and BAM ... small-kine explosive feelings shock through me. I think about his light touch on my body and I have to shake my head to be free of those feelings since I never see the guy.
One thought in particular ... we were at a local noodle house getting take out. He stood behind (towers over) me while I order our food. Then, I feel it. His hand slips beneath the bottom of my tee and he softly caresses my hip and lower back. My brain goes kinda fuzzy and I just about melt before I catch myself and finish the order.
Dude put some kind of spell on me or something because I can't shake this attraction. He's a riding buddy, too. Maybe that has something to do with it. Something about riding with him is incredibly ... sexy. And, I ride with other guys, but don't feel that way with any of them. We're all friends, but this one did something to me, and now I see him differently.
This is going to drive me a little bonkers until I ride with him again. Maybe next Friday .... just maybe.
Rantings ....
Now, I'm not pointing any fingers or anything, but how often does one need to post on facebook about their vacation?? I admit, that when I go away, I'll post something everyday ... a picture or two, a status but, that's it.
I mean, Come on! Who cares that you're packing to leave for another island today. And who cares that you're at the airport about to leave for your vacation. And who the fuck cares that your kid has new digs at the Four fucking Seasons!! Not I, sir. Not I.
The point being that this person whom I'm ranting about isn't the only one that does it. And, not just about vacations, but some do it about their kids. Whom aren't even born yet. Unfortunately, those kind of friends get booted from my list. And, then there are the ones who are getting married. OMG ... don't EVEN get me fucking started on those shit heads. They're so called your "friends" on facebook, yet they fail to invite you to their wedding but still rub it in your face that their wedding will be the best one ever. Not for me because MINE was the best wedding ever. And, no I am not biased just because it was my own. It really was the bomb.
Being that it was a particular case of super awesome bomb-ness, still, I kept my enthusiasm about it under wraps. No posts on Myspace (yes, myspace) every 5 minutes on how I couldn't wait to become Mrs. B and how excited I was that mainland family would be coming in soon. And, posts like "can you believe in 5 days we'll be married for forever?" Oh, please ... kill me now. Bleh.
I suppose this stuff has been bottled up for a while, so I apologize for sounding like a horrible bitch filled with j-rage. I'm at a point in my life where I could care less if I'm hurting someones feelings with my words. In general, I am a very nice, easy to get along with kind of gal, but every now and then, the bitch slips.
Thank you for listening to my rant ....
I mean, Come on! Who cares that you're packing to leave for another island today. And who cares that you're at the airport about to leave for your vacation. And who the fuck cares that your kid has new digs at the Four fucking Seasons!! Not I, sir. Not I.
The point being that this person whom I'm ranting about isn't the only one that does it. And, not just about vacations, but some do it about their kids. Whom aren't even born yet. Unfortunately, those kind of friends get booted from my list. And, then there are the ones who are getting married. OMG ... don't EVEN get me fucking started on those shit heads. They're so called your "friends" on facebook, yet they fail to invite you to their wedding but still rub it in your face that their wedding will be the best one ever. Not for me because MINE was the best wedding ever. And, no I am not biased just because it was my own. It really was the bomb.
Being that it was a particular case of super awesome bomb-ness, still, I kept my enthusiasm about it under wraps. No posts on Myspace (yes, myspace) every 5 minutes on how I couldn't wait to become Mrs. B and how excited I was that mainland family would be coming in soon. And, posts like "can you believe in 5 days we'll be married for forever?" Oh, please ... kill me now. Bleh.
I suppose this stuff has been bottled up for a while, so I apologize for sounding like a horrible bitch filled with j-rage. I'm at a point in my life where I could care less if I'm hurting someones feelings with my words. In general, I am a very nice, easy to get along with kind of gal, but every now and then, the bitch slips.
Thank you for listening to my rant ....
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